I've recently come to a sobering realization--I'm gaining weight. I had noticed it awhile ago, but the number on the scale wasn't changing. Weight was appearing on my midsection that wasn't there before (I suppose that's a shift into being a woman rather than being a girl, dangit!). And there are the beginnings of stretch marks. However, it really hit home when I was pulling out my cute summer clothes and my jean skirts just WOULD NOT fit. One I can just squeeze into, but the other is completely unmanageable. This renders my "Barbie dress" completely unwearable because it was form fitting to begin with. Which makes me terribly sad because it's my favorite purchase ever.
I'll be honest, I don't look fat. And I know that I'm not what anyone would call fat, at 5'10" and 142.5 pounds. Hell, I'm probably still underweight! But I'm uncomfortable in my skin right now. And that's a very unhappy feeling. I'm not feeling pressured by the media (dear god, someone give all those "IT" girls in Hollywood a sandwich!), I just don't feel good about myself.
As of...well, probably when I get home from my mini-vacation from school, I am going to start working out. I'm bringing my bike to campus for recreation so I'm sure I can burn calories that way. Also, I have a $72 gym membership that I should take advantage of (it's a school facility that I'm automatically charged for as a student). It's also the season for fresh veggies, and I like veggies! Basically, I want to lose about 7 pounds. I want my clothes to fit because I don't want to have to buy new pants and skirts. That's all. I don't want to be frighteningly thin. Just happier again.
This is the first time I've had a problem with my own weight. It's upsetting. I wore cute clothes today, but I kept feeling self-conscious because my shirt was riding up over my love handles. And I felt very uncute at those moments.
Carbs are my enemy. I should purge my cabinet of pasta because that's my go-to food when I'm too stressed to make anything else. ACK.
I'm just venting because I'm upset, I suppose.
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Sigh. Carbs are NOT your enemy; that's dangerous thinking. Everything in moderation. Fat is the enemy moreso than carbs, and remember, there are GOOD CARBS. Mindless eating of sugary junk and high fat snackfoods is the real enemy. Are you drinking high calorie stuff like regular soda, 'energy' drinks (gatorade, powerade, red bull) or bottled tea? those are all high in sugar. are you eating junk food like potato chips, cheetos, candy bars, lots of cereal bars, poptarts, etc? those are killer carbs and high in sugar and fat. become a label reader rather than a food group eliminator. but the extra exercise and going to the gym is a good idea, too.
you've started doing more cooking, haven't you? becoming domesticated can put on weight, sometimes. that's just the way it is. drink lots of water, read labels, and when you want second helpings at dinner, take it of veggies. and let yourself relax a little from the program on the weekend so that you're not feeling deprived all of the time. pretty soon, you'll be firmed back up. you probably do look just fine, but i know how you feel.
See, that's the thing, I don't drink a whole lot of soda--mostly juice, milk, and water. And my junk food cravings are pretty rare, mostly an occasional candy bar or chips. I think the biggest change to my diet is eating more pasta since I'm too busy to make anything fussier. It's possible that I've been really stressed in the past few months and that's contributing to it. Hopefully now that I'm less stressed, I can make sure I'm feeding myself well!
Thanks for the encouragement, I appreciate it!
"Carbs are the enemy" only works when you're thinking about it correctly. Atkins was correct when he saw that Americans are eating a much higher proportion of carbs than they should be; however, severely restricting your carbs can be just as bad as overdoing it. The way I've been thinking lately is to both make sure I'm not eating way too much calorie-wise and at the same time making sure I'm getting enough protein. That combination will make sure that you're not severely overdoing it with the carbs.
Just a thought - take it or leave it.
I understand that balance and moderation are key to healthy eating. Mostly I'm saying I eat some sort of pasta or rice as a meal 3 times a week which is not good, especially in large helpings. I'm pretty sure that's what my problem is because I haven't changed eating habits other than eating much more pasta. Though, looking at the list of carbs that Nance provided, I hardly eat any of those things enough to hurt me.
In all truth, I think I'm developing into a woman rather than a teenager. Erk.
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