Stop Supersizing Me!

I've recently come to a sobering realization--I'm gaining weight. I had noticed it awhile ago, but the number on the scale wasn't changing. Weight was appearing on my midsection that wasn't there before (I suppose that's a shift into being a woman rather than being a girl, dangit!). And there are the beginnings of stretch marks. However, it really hit home when I was pulling out my cute summer clothes and my jean skirts just WOULD NOT fit. One I can just squeeze into, but the other is completely unmanageable. This renders my "Barbie dress" completely unwearable because it was form fitting to begin with. Which makes me terribly sad because it's my favorite purchase ever.

I'll be honest, I don't look fat. And I know that I'm not what anyone would call fat, at 5'10" and 142.5 pounds. Hell, I'm probably still underweight! But I'm uncomfortable in my skin right now. And that's a very unhappy feeling. I'm not feeling pressured by the media (dear god, someone give all those "IT" girls in Hollywood a sandwich!), I just don't feel good about myself.

As of...well, probably when I get home from my mini-vacation from school, I am going to start working out. I'm bringing my bike to campus for recreation so I'm sure I can burn calories that way. Also, I have a $72 gym membership that I should take advantage of (it's a school facility that I'm automatically charged for as a student). It's also the season for fresh veggies, and I like veggies! Basically, I want to lose about 7 pounds. I want my clothes to fit because I don't want to have to buy new pants and skirts. That's all. I don't want to be frighteningly thin. Just happier again.

This is the first time I've had a problem with my own weight. It's upsetting. I wore cute clothes today, but I kept feeling self-conscious because my shirt was riding up over my love handles. And I felt very uncute at those moments.

Carbs are my enemy. I should purge my cabinet of pasta because that's my go-to food when I'm too stressed to make anything else. ACK.

I'm just venting because I'm upset, I suppose.